I don’t know what it is right now but I wish I had someone to hold or hold me. I’ve been thinking of this girl at work that I’d like to hold. But I would only want that if it could happen without any strings attached. maybe it’s the book that I’m reading or something but something has got me feeling like I’m lacking something. I think I’m lacking some kind of reward for finishing my work. I guess that can be reading. yeah I’ll just read.