It’s been a year since my suicide attempt. I can say that I’m glad to be alive. I had a serenely strange moment when I thought I was dying. I just surrendered and kept saying to myself, “this is it. This is how it ends.” I seriously thought I was going to die and I wasn’t that panicked. The paramedics weren’t in a rush to save me either. I would’ve just died if I had overdosed on anything other than Benadryl. I’m really disappointed with the sense of urgency that paramedics, doctors, and 9-11 centers have. They’re not really urgent about things and they aren’t motivated enough.