Welcome to another episode of Marcus Brain Dumps. I’m your host, Marcus. My last name shall forever be a secret.
I’m coming to you today in a state of unrest. I feel uneasy because I feel like I didn’t really accomplish anything today -like today didn’t even matter. From an outside perspective, I accomplished several things:
- Got my blood drawn for lab tests. Kind of an accomplishment
- Played 90 minutes of drums
- Finished some extra credit for my programming class
- Read The 4-Hour Workweek
That’s a pretty good day I guess. But I’m upset because I didn’t do more. I should have practiced drums for 2 full hours. I should have studied for my test after finishing the extra credit. I should have gone to the gym. But I’m also having another thought: would it have really mattered if I had done all the things I was supposed to do? I guess I need to find purpose. I say that my purpose is to eventually help people. But I don’t know what that means. I also have a new thought that I need to express myself and make music or art. . . . I don’t know. I think I’m on the right path to finding purpose. My ultimate goal is to share music with people that they will enjoy. Something that gives them catharsis -like Dashboard Confessional. I’ll need to rethink the way I’m approaching music and really think about how I’m going to spend my time if I want to make the music that I want to make. I can feel myself getting excited by the thought.
But I want to do something interesting too. Funk screamo?